Guidance

Yesterday I had my interview and I moved back to Grenfell! The interview went very well, I got to meet the principal and secretary and see the school. I found out that the school has only been running for 3 years, there is only about 40 students right now, so it's not too big and they also have a daycare with about 30 cildren. During the interview we discussed working in both the school and the daycare, and they told me about the curriculum. It is definitely structured differently than a public school, they don't actually have teachers teaching the classes, it's more like they supervise and help. There is some teaching that happens, but I think mostly the students work in workbooks that have the objective and lesson in them. It all sounds good, but I don't really know if it's right for me. This is definitely something that I will need to be praying about over the next few weeks. I still have to wait for the call from them before I really decide anyways. I have also applied with the school division in Grenfell and surrounding towns. I know that the high school here is looking for a full time EA, so I am waiting for a call from them as well. Right now I am just hoping I can find something for the summer, I'm going to have to start paying my student loan off, and I have car payments and cell phone bill and everything as well. So I could really use prayer for guidance if I have to make a decision about working at either school, and moving, etc. And prayer that God will provide a summer job!


He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his way. Psalm 25:9

Trusting God!

As you know, from my last post, God has really been working in my life lately. I have noticed so many huge changes He has made in me, and I just want to say that I am really blessed to be able to say that I am His child! I don't know where I would be today if I didn't have Jesus in my life!
Lately I have had something bothering me, I haven't been able to sleep at night, been staying up late just lying in my bed trying to sleep. Tonight the reason I am up so late is because I am packing, well I should be packing but instead I'm posting in my blog. But the past few nights I just haven't been able to get to sleep! I have no clue what it is that I am worrying about, but I do know that I am worried about something. I have been praying about it, but I still feel bothered by something. If you could all pray for me too, that'd be great! It'd be really nice to know what it is that I'm so worried about too, it's so weird not knowing! Maybe it's the fact that I am stressed about having to move, or maybe the fact that I don't have a job right now, and don't really know what I'll be doing for the rest of the summer or in the fall. But whatever it is, it is very unsettling and I just want it to be gone! I definitely still need to learn to trust in God, trust that things will work out the way they are supposed to. I am definitely the kind of person that just wants things to go my way, I think that my way is good because it's what I want, but it's not good because it's not what God wants for me. The past couple of weeks have been a good learning experience though, but I'm still not quite there.
Well, thank you to all who have read this. I must be off to finish my packing, have a great day!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5

Faith as small as a mustard seed...

I don't think I have ever been as happy as I am today! Literally, I'm crying tears of joy. Let me fill you in on everything starting with a couple of years ago.... First of all, I just recently graduated from the Educational Assistant program at SIAST. Three years ago I had no clue what I wanted to do with my life so I talked to family and friends and asked them what they thought I should do. A few of them mentioned going into Education to be a teacher, I agreed with them on going into Education, but becoming a teacher didn't really appeal to me. So I prayed about it and asked God what He wanted me to do. I didn't really feel like I got a for sure answer from God so I kept talking to my mom about it, and together we decided that becoming an Educational Assistant would be a good idea. So I applied at SIAST, and I prayed about it asking God if it was what He wanted me to do, and that if it was He would make it happen. A couple months after I applied I got a letter saying that I was accepted but would be on the waiting list because there were no available seats that year, but they would phone me if one opened up. So while I was waiting I tried looking for a place to live and found nothing. I got a phone call 2 days before classes started saying that they had a spot available. Unfortunately I had to decline because I had no where to live in Saskatoon. So I just went on with my life that year. By April of 2010 I decided it would be good to start looking for a place to live in Saskatoon for school in the fall. But before I could even get started on that I got an email from my friend stating that she had some friends who were wanting to rent a house from a lovely Christian family for the year but they needed 1 more roommate. Of course I accepted! And they accepted me as well. So that was all good, I was finally going to be going to school for something that I knew I would love, and I had an affordable and beautiful place to live! The summer went by and it was finally time to move to Saskatoon and live with 4 roommates (4 beautiful roommates). When I started school I was a little overwhelmed by all the classes that I would be taking in the first semester, 8 classes in 1 semester... talk about crazy! But I knew I that with God I could do it no problem. I did however start to doubt God a little bit during the fall. I was so stressed and still very overwhelmed, I hadn't really been going to church much, and I was just starting to question the God's existance. I had started walking down the wrong path, I was headed for danger. I knew the stuff I was doing was wrong, and I knew I needed help! So, I turned to a very wise friend for help. It was an amazing thing actually! I called my friend but there was no answer and I didn't bother leaving a message, and on her end she heard the phone ring but didn't get to it in time. She had a sneaking suspicion that someone was in need of help, so she prayed to God that whoever it was they would call back. Two minutes later her phone rang again, and there I was on the other end crying. We had a very good chat, she prayed for me over the phone and I just felt so much better after that. I wish I could say that my life got better instantly, but of course it didn't. It took me a while to straighten out my life again, and to get back on the right path. Ok, where was I? Well, I got through the first semester of college, passed 7 out of 8 classes. Don't worry, I was able to take a supplemental exam when I got back to Saskatoon after Christmas, and I passed! That made me so happy to know that I made it through the first semester! Now it was time for my first practicum, in an elementary school. I will just say this, I absolutely loved working in an elementary school! I didn't want to go back to SIAST for the rest of my classes, but I had to. This next semester was short, I believe it was only 9 weeks long, and we only had 5 classes now. I made it through, trusting God again, and I passed all my classes! Now it was time for my second practicum, in a high school. This is something that I really was not looking forward to, I was so nervous and I just really didn't think it was for me. Well, you know what they say, "don't judge a book by it's cover." That's exactly what I was doing when I was thinking of myself working in a high school. I didn't think I would like it at all, but surprisingly enough, I loved it! Right now I actually miss all of the students that I was working with! 

So now this brings me to what's been going on lately. I had applied at the Saskatoon Public School board to be an EA on the sub list. I hadn't heard anything from them for weeks after I applied so I was really starting to think that maybe it's not what God wants me to do. Finally I got a phone call from them telling me when to come in for an interview. I went into the interview thinking "yes, this is it, i'm going to get it!" Well, unfortunately the list was full and I did not get it. I was going to give up on working in a school, but then I found Grace Christian School! I emailed them asking how I would apply to work there, they didn't email back for a couple of weeks. I was getting sick of waiting, but finally I got a reply telling me how to apply. So I did, and again I waited for another reply. While I was waiting I was also looking for a place to live, and a summer job. I had been applying at so many places, and email so many people about apartments and houses that they had for rent and I found nothing. Finally, after doing all of that I made up my mind. I decided that I was going to move home! My mom had actually told me to at the beginning of the month but I didn't listen to her, I wanted to prove her wrong. But I didn't... I haven't found a job back home yet, but I have a place to live rent free! Ok, so, yes I decided to move home, and hopefully just for the summer. Now, what is making me so unbelievably happy today is that I have an interview with Grace Christian School! And I finally have my SIAST certificate from my program! You see, I have been praying about this, and trusting God, and now I have proof that He is real! This may not seem like proof to some of you, but to me it sure is! Just as I was thinking things weren't going very good, God gave me what I want! I know I haven't gone for the interview yet, and who knows if I'll even get the job, but just knowing that I am one step closer to achieving my goal is the most amazing feeling I have ever had! And I can really thank God for everything he has done for me. I know I might not be the best Christian sometimes, but God still loves me no matter what, and He will do anything for me, and he definitely supplies my needs! Hallelujah God is AWESOME! Now I just have to pray that God will let this interview go smoothly and that I will get the job of my dreams! I absolutely love how everything works out when you have just a little bit of faith! 

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."  Matthew 17:20