For most of my life I wanted to feel loved, and I would search for love in the wrong places. I would pursue guys because I thought that having a boyfriend would make me feel loved, and I became addicted to pornography and self-gratification because it made me feel something. I've been a Christian since I was 5 years old, but somewhere along the way that just didn't seem like enough to me. So many people have told me throughout my life that God is love and that I should be pursuing Him to feel loved. That is true, but it can be a hard thing to do for some people. For me it has been hard because I like having someone physically there, someone that I can actually see, feel and hear. I was listening to the song Relentless Pursuit, it is about pursuing God, but it kind of reminded me of my life and how I have been pursuing other things. As I was listening to it I prayed and told God that I when I sing this song I want it to be for Him and about Him. I want my life to be about pursuing God, I no longer want to pursue other things. I need your help with this, I need you all to hold me accountable. If you notice me pursuing a guy, or pursuing anything else let me know and tell me to stop and turn my focus back to God! I will try my best to listen to you.
May God bless you all!
Here is the link for the song if you would like to listen to it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVxaTvNq534
