Wrting The Story...

For a while now, I have been feeling like I've been the one trying to write my own story. I know it's not supposed to be like that, I know that God is supposed to be writing it for me. A few days ago I came across an instrumental song, I fell in love with it instantly! I listened to it over and over. Today I found out that the song actually has lyrics, so I searched it on youtube. The minute I heard the words I started to cry, it really spoke into my life. The song is called Background and it's by a Christian rapper Lecrae and ft. Andy Mineo (C-Lite). The lyrics will be at the bottom if you want to read them later, and I will attach a link for the song also.
 The song is about taking the background and letting God take the lead. I really feel that this song was stuck on my playlist for a reason. Although I had already been feeling that I have been trying to be the lead role, I did need this little reminder. For a lot of my life I have been trying to plan things out, things like marriage, where I'll live, what I'll be doing, etc. I think most of us do that, am I right? Well, I don't think God wants us to be mapping out our own lives, and doing the things that we want to be doing, and going the places we want to go. It's when we do the things we want, that we end up making mistakes. In the second verse of this song he's talking about being in control of our own lives and only trusting in ourselves, and that's how you end up headed for destruction, paving the road to nowhere. We need to trust in God, not ourselves, and we need to let him take control of our lives. He writes our story, we don't! 
Almost 2 years ago, when I moved back home, I knew it was for a reason. I ended up getting a good job at the high school, and I started running the youth centre. I thought that I was going to be the manager of the youth centre for quite a long time.. It's almost been 2 years and I am now starting to feel that God is calling me to go somewhere else. I have been feeling this way for a while, but have been trying to push it off and write my own story. I want so badly to stay here and keep running the youth centre, because I fear that if I leave no one else will want to take over and keep it running. But I have to let go of that fear.. It's not up to me what happens, it's up to God, and I trust that He will find someone good to take over. He is God after-all. So now, we must leave this all up to God. We must pray that if this is what He has planned, that He will bring the best candidate for volunteering their time with the youth of the town, and that I will follow His plan and now my own. Sorry, that we will all follow His plan and now our own plans. He is our Creator, our Story Writer, our King.

"It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man." Psalm 118:8

“A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” Proverbs 16:9



Here is the song lyrics and the link to listen to it on youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHnZRZiCYHE

(Chorus)
I could play the background
I could play the background
Cause I know sometimes I get in the way
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
And I could play the background, background
And You could take the lead

(verse 1)
It's evident you run the show, so let me back down
You take the leading role, and I'll play the background 
I know I miss my cues, know I forget my lines
I'm sticking to your script, and I'm reading all your signs
I don't need my name in lights, I don't need a starring role
Why gain the whole wide world, If I'm just going lose my soul
And my ways ain't pure if I don't live according to Your Word
I can't endure this life without Your wisdom being heard
So word, to every dancer for a pop star
'Cause we all play the background, but mine's a rockstar
Yeah, so if you need me I'll be stage right
Praying the whole world will start embracing stage fright
So let me fall back, stop giving my suggestions
'Cause when I follow my obsessions, I end up confessing
That I'm not that impressive, matter of fact
I'm who I are, a trail of stardust leading to the superstar

(Chorus)

(Verse 2)
I had a dream that I was captain of my soul
I was master of my fate, lost control, and then I sankSo I don't want to take the lead, 'cause I'm prone to make mistakesAll these folks who follow me, gon' end up in the wrong placeSo let me just shadow you, let me trace your linesMatter of fact, just take my pen, here, you create my rhymes'Cause if I do this by myself, I'm scared that I'll succeedAnd no longer trust in you, 'cause I only trust in meAnd see, that's how you end up headed to destructionPaving a road to nowhere, pour your life out for nothingYou pulled my card, I'm bluffing, You know what's in my handMe, I just roll and trust you, You cause the dice to landI'm in control of nothing, follow you at any costSome call it sovereign will, all I know is you the bossMan, I'm so at ease, I'm so contentI'll play the background, like it's an instrument

(Chorus)

(Bridge)
I know I'm safest when I'm in Your will, and trust Your Word
I know I'm dangerous when I trust myself, my vision blurred
And I ain't got no time to play life's foolish games
Got plenty aims, but do they really Glorify Your name
And it's a shame, the way I want to do these things for You, yeah
Don't even cling to you, take time to sit and glean from You
It seems You were patient in my ignorance
If ignorance is bliss, it's 'cause she never heard of this

(Chorus x2)